What a long, strange trip it’s been…
For over a year now, I have been part of a group, focused on learning, adhering to a schedule (mostly), and with a clearly defined path to follow.
Now the program is finished, and I feel like I am lost in the wilderness.
It is amazing how comfortable I became, having some outside power dictate my timetable, no real decisions to make, day flowing into day in a predictable pattern. Yes, there were tough assignments, and on any given day many minor decisions were made, but in the larger picture, I was happy to relinquish control and walk the predetermined path.
Now that path has ended, and I find myself at a crossroads. There are choices in front of me, and so much depends on making the right decision – it’s nerve-racking. Look for a job, start my own business, find another program and go back to school? Which direction should I take, and how do I know it’s the right one?
I’m going to take a couple of weeks and just decompress, re-connect with my family, play in my garden, play with my horse, let my feelings settle down a bit.
Then I’ll take a fresh look at my options, and hopefully they will not be as scary as they seem right now.